~m3 My$3Lf n EyE~

…:::its been a while i din update dis blog thingi..kinda missed it so i decided to type sumtin ere..ngeee..kinda bored n lonely plak suddenly kan..then teringat kat dis blog..hihihi…dis past few weeks kinda bz wit examz,assignments,presentation,reports etc etc…wut a hectic lyfe kan…kinda bored gak sumtimes tu ngan sme2 ni…huhu..rasa pressure teramat smpai tahap da mls nk kesah..smpai da xamik kesah..tahap ‘ape nk jadi,jadila..i dun giv a damn’..smpai thp cmtu skali…n sumtimes ade gak la dok termenung sensorg,then suddenly rs sumtin warm kat mata plak kan..huhu..cud’nt help it…try not to cry,but i cudn’t stop it…mcm prasaan ade time2 gtu,bercampo2…dunno nk luahkan kat sape…i noe i can depens on him n tell him..but i dun wanna bother him sho much wit my unstable feelings..cus its between me n myself..but,luckily there is sumtin dat can cheer me up…having him by my side is enough for me..its all ive eva wanted..thanks a bunch kat die..agaga…when he’s around,i cudn’t think any of my unstable feelings between me n myself..ngee..glad dat u’re around!!!sereysly!!! i noe there’s so many mistakes dat ive done,n im so sorry..i mean it…besides him,my g.a.d.i.s.k.u pun is d most precious thing to me rite now..need them badly n dunno hows my life gonna b without them by my side…they’re da one dat i can talked to <besides him la kan> …about anythin..problem,secrets,help..etc etc…mayb i din show how much i need them,how much i loved them..i dunno how to express it i guess..but deep inside,i really love them n need them..huhu…ble tgh down,lyn gle2 derg ni bley ilang segala prasaan ‘down’ tu..hihi..d outsiders may think dierg ni gle but 4 me,gle2 gni yg leh ceriakan org len..they may look kinda loud-type but deep inside,they’re nice..seyesly…no offence babe..all i can say is,having him n g.a.d.i.s.k.u is all ive eva needed rite now n hope its 4eva..ngee..thanks a bunch korg!!loves y’all sho much2:::…

apriani~

…:::cam lama lak xupdate blogku ini…arini da start cuti midterm break..but ku blk esk kot…supposely pg td ade anotha satu class..but ku decide untuk tdk peg class itu kerna mls..plus  last nite blk lmbt..so da agk mst xkan terjaga nye..hihi..so,ponteng la jwbnye..agagga…midterm break ni sminggu je but ku kne blk sini awl…tp,bgs gak blk awl..xde la buhsan sensorg kang kat umh cos familyku sme g blk indon..huaaa…nk itot!!!!!!huhuu…derg g jumaat dpn,seb bek ms tu da blk sini blk….tp kan..yg pstinye,cuti ni mst buhsan gak cam cuti2 yg len..sbb buhsan kat umh..sme keje..tgl la sorg2..adeh..buhsan sey gtu…hukhuk…btw,HAPPY HOLIDAY to sme:::…

apriani~
‘bunga citra-aku tak mau sendiri"

…:::smlm bt trip jalan2 ke GENTING,yg join adalah ann,mili,doory,iya,raja,leo,jarir n me…it wus so so damn fun!!sgt2 enjoy n sgt2 gumbira..at first ingat genting xde la sejuk sgt sbb dlu g xde la sejuk bebeno..so,ku pon mls la bwk sweater segala..skali trun je dr bus,gle sejuk..damn freezin..agaga..ann ske ar sejuk2 gni..hihih..ktrg da kesejukkan but derg sme bwk sweater..seb bek la ku pkai bj 2lapis..agaga..kat sana,men bnyk bnd..ade yg men smpai ulang 2kali..xpnh g sana men ulang2 kali ni..hahah..teringin nek solero dr dlu,tp smlm solero under maintainace la plak..haizz..melepas lak..then men la roller coaster sbb dr dlu xpnh try sbb mls beratur..tp smlm men,besh gak..ulang 2kali men bnd tu..hihihi..n yg plg ku ske,spinner,buaian terbang2 tu..ske gle men bnd ni sbb cam terbang..weehuu..men kali gak..nk nek kali ke-3 tp xjadi lak..hihhii..then men la pelbagai lagi gem yg ade situ…kebnyakkannye sme gem ktrg try ar..sonok sonok bangat…ngee…trip kali ni sgt la enjoy,sgt la besh,sgt la fun..mmg xpk da bnd2 len..jes pk nk enjoy je..hihi..smpai kl smlm dlm kul 945pm.then singgah mkn segala…smpai bilek dlm kul 1..lek2 jap,then tros terbongkang tdo..hihii..penat tp worth it cos sgt funfunfun..ngeee:::…

frm left:jarir,me,iya,mili,doory,leo,ann,raja

~apriani~

…:::take me away:::…

bawaku lari dari duniaku yg buhsan ini..
bawaku lari dari duniaku yg sibuk ini..
bawaku lari dari duniaku yg memenatkan ini..
bawaku lari dari duniaku yg bingit ini..
bawaku lari dari duniaku yg serba-tak-kena ini..

bawaku lari jauh..
jauh dari kebuhsanan..
jauh dari kesibukkan..
jauh dari kepenatan..
jauh dari kebingitan..
jauh dari rasa serba-tak-kena..
ku ingin lari jauh sejauh mungkin dari semua ini..

ku ingin kedamaian..
ku ingin ketenangan..
ku ingin mencari dan mengutip mood-mood ku yang hilang entah kemana..
tapi..
dimanakah???
dan
kemanakah??

~apriani~

…:::once i entered my room,there’s dis one songs captured kpalaku sgt..trus dok repeat psg lagu tu kat winampku..then suddenly,cam rasa nk post kat blogku ni..der u go:::…

I would give up everything
before I’d seperate
Myself from you
After so much suffering
I finaly found unvarnished truth
I was all by myself for the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heartache
Would not subside
I felt like dying
Until you saved my life

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I’m overwhelmed with gratitude
Sweet baby I’m so thankful I found you

See I was so desolate
Before you came to me
Looking back I guess
It shows that we were
Destined to shine
After the rain
To appreciate
The gift of what we have
And go through it all
Over again
To be able to feel this way

*dedikate dis song kat kamu..i think u noe who u are..ngee~

~apriani~
*thank god i found u-mariah & 98degree*

…:::kebenaran terungkai juga akhirnya..tu la yg kluar dr kpala ku tadi n tu la yg kuberitahu die..ngee…tp mst kamu still blur lagi kan..hihihi..nnt2 ill let u noe k babe..btw, berbalik kpd kebenaran ni blk..afta berbulan2 lamanye,akhirnye ku tau crite sebenar yg terjadi dblakangku slama ni…slama dperbodohkan..slama ditipu etc..punya la dlu aku snyp kunun2 mls ar nk cari psl kan..skali,org yg dok maki2 aku,die pon bt salah kat aku..tp ske ati jek nk maki2 aku kan..wuddahewl..but,its ok now..thank god smua tu da berakhir n im superduper happy wit my life now…tenkiu kamu…ngee:::…

~apriani~
=)

…:::kenapakah begitu??:::..

…:::mengapakah begini??:::…

…:::apekah suma ini??:::…

…::wut did i do??:::…

…:::did i make any mistakes??:::…

…:::bersalahkah aku??:::…

agagaga~
persoalan2 yg sering bermain dipikiran…
ke ku je pasan lebey..
xske nye ble dok tertanye2 sndiri gni..
nak tanya,tp ku xtau bgaimana nk tanye…
nak diam,ku yg xsedap ati..
tp,spt kebiasaanku,
diam je la..
huhuhu..
hope tak spt yg ku pk kan..
hope sme nye berjln lancar…
aminnn….

apriani~

…:::dis past few days,emosi ku tdk begitu stabil..agaga..pk pe tah..haizz…ni yg plg ku takot n xske ttg diriku sbb ku kuatir emosi yg tdk stabil ini akn membuatkan org rs annoyed dgn diriku..sowie sgt2 kalu kata2 n tndakkan ku sepnjg mgg ni bt kamu2 sme rs annoyed..agaga..really cant help it…dats y i prefer to snyp jek..but,sumhow stil  kne berckp gak kan..agaga..sorry sgt2…my bad…n i admit it…ku sndiri pon bnci ngan diriku ble dlm keadaan ini,pe tah lg org len kan..agaga..sowiesowiesowie…din mean to hurt anybody..din mean to b in dis way..din mean anythin:::…

~apriani~
T_____T

…:::lari..aku lari tinggalkan semua ini

untuk mencari-cari ketenangan diri ini

keluhan hatiku tak siapa yg tahu

ku simpan semua sebak di dada

biar ku yang terluka

nafas dan kata dari bibir

adakah yang dari hati

atau ada maksud yang tersembunyi??:::…

~apriani~